How is it possible that you are already half a year old!? What a past month it has been. If I’m being honest baby, I’d probably say this month has been the toughest of our time together so far. Ever since we got back from Florida it has been a rocky road with not a lot of sleep and quite a bit of tears. I remember in the middle of one of our mostly sleepless nights I turned to your daddy and asked him to please take good care of you when I have to go to the hospital from sleep deprivation. I was very serious. I’ve had the flu (twice now!), had to go on a medication that screwed with my moods and hurt my milk supply and all of this caused you to be extremely fussy for a while. I couldn’t figure out what you needed, you were sleepy but wouldn’t nap and as it turns out, very hungry.
But it’s a new month and things are looking up. You are back to sleeping 3-5 hours at a time during the night with an occasional 7 hour stretch. I never thought we’d get naps figured out but after a lot of trial and error and occasionally literally falling on my knees asking for divine wisdom, it seems we have finally found our groove.
A few weeks before you turned 6 months we decided to try giving you solid food. You had been trying to grab our food at dinner time for a couple of weeks and even managed to get a black bean once. You never seemed satisfied after nursing and now I knew why. So we gave you some puréed peas mixed with breast milk and despite the faces I captured that first time, you loved it.
Now days you eat mixes three times a day and chow down. We’ve also had to use some homemade formula with you occasionally. Sometime we give you solid bits of steamed veggies. We have known for a few months now that you have a flair for the dramatic but this really comes out when you experience these new textures. You make a loud noise like you are choking and make a hilarious face. We freaked out the first few times but soon learned you were fine. Hopefully we will know when you actually ARE choking? Between 4.5-5.5 months you didn’t gain any weight but now you are up over 15lbs. But most importantly you are so much happier!
You are becoming quite mobile although you aren’t exactly crawling yet. You love to pull yourself on anything you can get ahold of and move yourself around that way. You sit up all the time these days and can almost gracefully get yourself down on to your tummy from there. When you are on your tummy you lift yourself up and get really excited and then drop back down which causes you to scoot backwards. So far this is the only direction you’ve got mastered but I think you’re on the verge of forward motion.
You love when we are around other people and get bored with just staying at home with me. When we are in a store you look around for someone to make eye contact with and then often smile at them like you are willing them to come talk to you. Mommy isn’t sure what to do with such an extrovert. You have started reaching to go to other people but keep tabs on mommy and daddy to make sure you can’t still see them.
You give hugs now. Every afternoon around 4 you start to say “dadada” and I think you know it is getting closer to time for daddy to come home. You shake your head like you are saying no but generally it seems like you just like the way it feels. Sometimes you get really excited and you make a funny face and blink both eyes. You try to hold on to all four of your rubber duckies in the bath tub at once. You’re very silly.
Emmy, I pray that
“May she be bread and feed many with her life and her laughter
May she be thread and mend brokenness and knit hearts
May she be dead to all ladders & never go higher, only lower, to the lonely, the least & the longing
Her led of the Spirit to lead many to the Cross
that leads to the tomb wildly empty.”